Today is the one year anniversary of my first miscarriage. Although I knew it was coming, it didn't make it any easier. I was in the waiting room while Mr SC was having surgery when I discovered it had begun.
That first loss took so much from me but most notably, it took the innonence of TTC and the happiness that came with a BFP. We all know the statistics, but never think it will happen to us. I learned my lesson that day.
I'm so sorry you've had to go through that. I know exactly what you mean. Before the first miscarriage, I was EXCITED about TTC. I was naive, thought nothing could go wrong. And each time something did, it took a little piece of me with it. To the point where now that I'm pregnant again, I can't allow myself to be excited yet.
ReplyDeleteWe'll get through this together! (I'm due around the same time you are, I think!)
Love to you today.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry, Kelly. Sending you lots of hugs all day. (((HUGS)))
ReplyDeleteSending you lots of hugs today! (((HUGS)))
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry, Kelly. Sending you much love and (((hugs))) today. (And everyday for that matter!!)
ReplyDeleteHugs to you and hoping you get through the day.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you today. The anniversary of my first loss...happens to be my husband's birthday as well. Hang in there!
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry, Kelly. Thinking of you today.
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Big (((hugs))) to you. I hope you two can do something special to mark this day together.
ReplyDelete((Hugs)) My thoughts are with you today.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you today. *Hugs*
ReplyDeleteReliving those awful moments is something that stays with you for a very long time. However, see this pregnancy as a new chapter, one of hope and great optimism :) And, know that its okay to grieve the sweet baby you lost.
ReplyDeleteMy thoughts are with you, as trips down memory lane are never easy.
Continue to be well
xoxo
((hugs))
ReplyDeleteSending love to you today (and everday, for that matter!).
ReplyDeleteYAY for a good doctor's appt this week.....hopefully the numbers will be GREAT on Monday!!!
((hugs))
My heart is with you today.
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Awww hun, huge HUGS to you. I'm approaching the anniversay of mine too, and feel exactly the same way. Much love to you!!!
ReplyDeleteSending lots of hugs!
ReplyDeleteSeriously, one of the worst days of my life. I completely understand. Hugs!
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry, it's got to be a really hard day. Lots of love to you today.
ReplyDeleteSending you lots of (((HUGS))) today & can totally relate. I still have to hold back tears every time I have to go in the u/s room where I found out.
ReplyDeleteI'm really happy to hear about your beta! Thinking good thoughts for your next beta!
I'm sorry. ((hugs)) And I hope you have a good and relaxing weekend.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry for your loss but so very happy for your BFP. Hang in there.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry. ((((HUGS))))
ReplyDeleteSending you love and hugs today. Fran
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What a terrible, gut-wrenching lesson. So sorry for all of your loss. I wish I could give you a real hug. ((((hug)))) just does not cut it.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry *hugs*
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What a sad anniversary--the anniversary of lost innocence. I'm really, really hoping that the little bean nestling in right now is there to stay for a while. That this is the one for you!
ReplyDeleteSorry you've had to deal with so many losses. It must be heartbreaking. Wishing you lots of luck and happiness for your current pregnancy!
ReplyDeleteIt DOES steal that innocence. I don't think you'll ever forget those things - how can you? But I'm hoping hard they'll be demoted in the joy of what is about to come.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry for your losses. Hugs and Extra Sticky Vibes coming your way!
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Loads of hugs!
ReplyDeletexox tomi.
Gosh. I am reading your blog for the first time today and wish I found it sooner.
ReplyDeleteI know what you are going through. I went through it twice. Not that it's a numbers game or anything.
But yes, the first year is the worst. The anniversary sucks. Boy does it ever.
But YES, the sun does come out tomorrow. It does. I know it does.
xo B
I'm so sorry, Kelly.
ReplyDeletesending a little thought for all your little angels in heaven for them my darling. I am so sorry I missed this blog.. and I hope that you are still travelling ok.
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