First, if you're stopping by from ICLW, welcome. I really struggled with whether I wanted to participate or not this time around, considering I just found out about non-viable pregnancy #4. However, I have *met* so many wonderful people through ICLW that I felt it was important, and perhaps almost necessary, to try to deal with all of this.
I've been awake since 3:45 am. I'm seeing my RE this morning at 8. I am really, really hoping there is some way I can have a procedure so that I don't have to do this at home. It just seems so different to stay home and have me deliberately do something to cause my pregnancy to end. I know, the medication comes from a doctor, etc. but I'm really struggling with this.
I'm also not sure how much of a conversation I want to have with her about what next at this point. I think I may ask the very open-ended, "where do we go from here?" but that's it. I think discussing everything else today may just be enough for me.
Thank you so much to all of you who've stopped by to offer support. Your words offer a great deal of comfort to me and for that, I'm grateful.
You're probably getting ready to walk out the door for your appointment. Carry us in spirit with you to your appointment today. Let your friends and Mr.SC provide you the strength to make it through this day.
ReplyDeleteSending you love,love,love.
Good luck at the appt today. Sorry for what it has to be. Most of all, sorry for what you're going through. It's so unfair.
ReplyDeleteI'm hoping you will find peace with what's next, but allow yourself to grieve this right now too.
big (((hugs))) to you...
Kelly, I am really sorry. I was afraid of staying at home too, though that was offered to me as an option. Some people feel differently about it and find it's helpful in the long run. I don't know. It's so tough.
ReplyDeleteI will be thinking of you today, even though we've never met. I wish you all the best.
xx
Hi, here via ICLW & LFCA.
ReplyDeleteI just wanted to say how sorry I am for your loss. Thinking of you.
Kim
I am here from LFCA, I am so very sorry for your loss and hope your Dr can offer you some comfort and that you do not have to miscarry at home. I had a D & E 2 weeks, the are no words for this......
ReplyDeleteKeeping you in my thoughts.
We are holding your hand through all of this. I just wish there were words that could make this better. Thinking of you today and always.
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You're in my thoughts today. Truly sorry about your loss.
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Please know that I am thinking of you today. It just sucks and I'm sorry. Hugs!
ReplyDeleteGood luck today....I'll be thinking of you and sending prayers your way.
ReplyDeleteMuch love!
I am so sorry for you loss.... I hope that you appt today goes well and that you dont have to do this at home if you dont want to . You will be in my T&P!
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry for your loss. I too had to 'choose' to have my miscarriage at home due to scar tissue. I hope that you get some answers to why this keeps happening. You're in my thoughts.
ReplyDeleteI hope the appointment goes well - as well as it can under these really dreadful circumstances. And I do know what you mean about the cytotec. If you live near your doctor's perhaps she could administer it for you?
ReplyDeleteI do think that not biting off too much today is a good idea. You need time to heal and think.
Many prayers coming your way.
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