Thursday, April 1, 2010

Getting Through The Week

I'm 5w2d today and if I allow myself to stop and think about it, it scares the shit out of me.

This is the week where everything has always gone wrong. This is when I started spotting and had the u/s that would show that my bean was two days behind. The docs always told me not to worry, that it was fine.

It never was.

Today is the day when I was pregnant last spring that I started spotting during my period 7 class. Today, when I made it to the beginning of 8th period in the clear, it took everything I had not to cry in the bathroom.

Every night before I got to sleep, I say "we made it through the day", as I rub my belly. I pray that I can say that for another 35 weeks.

24 comments:

  1. Cherish every single day you have with that baby inside you. Try looking at taking one day at a time as sometimes a week can be way too overwhelming. Good luck!

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  2. I have my fingers and toes crossed for you. Hugs!

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  3. Hugs!! Hang in there, kelly! Everything crossed for you!

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  4. Hang in there, Kelly. I know this isn't easy. Know that we are all thinking about you and praying for you. Just keep taking things one day at a time. You are doing great.

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  5. I wish so much that this was easier and I'm keeping you in my thoughts and prayers (and I'm not usually a praying kind of gal) everyday.

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  6. Yes, you've made it 5 weeks and 2 days already! I hope you can keep focusing on being thankful for each day and that the this precious little one will hold on strong, one day at a time.

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  7. I'm thinking of you and keeping you and your little one in my prayers!

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  8. I'm so happy. Day's like this (where you have experienced loss in the past) are the worst.

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  9. You are making it. You're doing just great!

    This is hard advice to follow... I tell myself it everyday... take it all in; enjoy your baby every day even if you're scared (which how could we not be?).

    One day at a time, Kelly!

    many many prayers,
    ebe

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  10. I am always praying for you and your bean.

    You've made it through another day.

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  11. Awe, I'm sorry today was a hard day to make it through. I'm hopeing and praying your baby mind's his/her momma and stays in there for 35 more weeks! =)

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  12. Oh gosh, what a mixed bag of emotions. I continue to hope and pray for the very, very best for you and your bean Kelly.

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  13. This whole post just makes me want to give you a great big hug. Grow, little bean, grow!

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  14. im the same way.
    hang in there everything is going to be ok this time! this is it! dont lose hope! you need a hugeeee hug! cant wait to hear about this bean growing & growing n making you happier & happier!

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  15. You're doing everything you can and we're all praying for you and the little bean! Hang in there.

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  16. Continuing to send prayers & hope that all will work out for you & baby:)

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  17. Making it past every little milestone is so awesome. Keep fighting, little one. :)

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  18. big (((hugs))), positive thoughts & lots of prayer coming your way!

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  19. OH my....that sounds so frightening. I hate that it has to be like that for you. :(

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  20. I'm right there with you hon...

    Every night, when it's time for the progesterone, it's a mini celebration and a moment for prayerful pleading... please please let this one stick. 5w3d. Every day is a milestone.

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  21. Good attitude...one day at a time! I know the exact feeling, though. I'm getting ready to enter my 9th week, which is when I lost my last baby. It's going to be a tough week for sure. Here's hoping that everything continues to go well. I'm guessing you have an u/s next week, right? I'll be watching to see how it goes!! GL and enjoy this beautiful weekend as a pregnant lady!

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  22. It truly is a waiting (and hoping) game at this point. And it's awful. My hope is that one day soon they'll be able to give us definitive news a lot earlier. But until then, hang in there. Hoping very hard for you.

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  23. OH I PRAY FOR THE SAME THING FOR YOU! I want this to be it for you. You deserve this baby, this miracle, this hapiness!

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  24. Hoping hard for you that this is it! Celebrate each day as a little victory!

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