I've been so proud of myself. Mr SC commented yesterday also that never in a million years would he have expected me to be like this this time around.
Relaxed. Calm. Not freaking out.
For the record, I've only cried once. I think that's pretty damn good, considering the circumstances.
Today though, I'm six weeks pregnant.
In three of my four losses, I didn't make it to this point without any problems. In my most recent miscarriage in the spring, I started spotting at 6w2d. That's Tuesday. This Tuesday.
I had a dream last night. In all of my losses, I had dreams that I miscarried. The dream last night was very different.
I had a baby. I'm not sure if it was a baby girl or boy but the baby was only a few months old and the dream was me juggling the regular household things (cooking, work for school), baby it tow. The baby also had an ear infection and I was running around trying to find a pediatrician.
Please universe. Powers that be. God. Buddha. Someone. Please let there be a heart beating inside me, other than my own. Please let that little heart keep beating strong until my child dies at the age of ninety years old.
Please let me hold our baby in my arms in July.
Wishing for all the best for you. I hope your dream is a sign of good things to come.
ReplyDeleteHappy ICLW~
Sending up many prayers. Holding you close in thought.
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We are all praying for you, darling. More than you could know. I pray that little heart has started thumping away in there.
ReplyDeleteYou will definitely be in my thoughts & prayers. Praying that you will see that sweet little heartbeat! And here's hoping that dream turns out to be reality in a few months!
ReplyDeleteYou know how hard I'm praying for you..and I think dreams can be prophetic..Mine were, not only the being pregnant part, but the sex of the baby..Oh, I just hope you can see the heart beating beautifully at your next appointment..
ReplyDeleteI'm hoping that dream is indeed a good sign, like your body knows something deep down that just can't be seen by anyone else yet. (I had eerie dreams too about my pregnancies and miscarriages.) I am hoping and praying for you! One day at a time, right?
ReplyDeleteI hope this dream comes true! And how amazing you're being being calm and relaxed; I've very impressed as I know it's hard.
ReplyDeleteFingers crossed for you. That dream sounds so hopeful--I hope the hope is fulfilled. You are in my thoughts and prayers. (((Hugs)))!
ReplyDeleteI'm praying for you and that little heartbeat! I know just how significant that heartbeat is! Now that I have Ella, I still thank and praise God every night as I feel it beating under my hand on her chest when I put her to sleep.
ReplyDeleteOh I hope so much for you that this is it, that you have a smooth pregnancy and a beautiful healthy baby in July. As you said prayers to whoever is in control of this crazy world that this time things go the way they should and the good responsible loving couple brings home the baby they have desired for so long ((hugs))
ReplyDeletewhat a wondeful dream. I pray that you do hold a beautiful baby in July!
ReplyDeleteI am praying for you that this is the one. There has to be a time where all the negative stuff just falls to the wayside and joy takes its place. I am praying this is the time for you - not least because it gives the rest of us with very similar stories the hope we need to go on. Sending you all the good vibes in the world! xx
ReplyDeleteHoping for good things for you- really really hoping.
ReplyDeleteYou know I'm keeping everything crossed for you!
ReplyDelete~x~
Hooray for milestone dates passed! I am desperately hoping you will get to hold that baby in July and hear its perfect thumping heart through its chest. :)
ReplyDeleteI'm here, along side you, holding your hand and saying "please" right with you.
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I'm sending all of my "please" begging along with you.
ReplyDeleteSending hugs and prayers with you. xo
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful dream! I am begging, pleading, and praying along with you that your dream comes true. *hugs*
ReplyDeleteWishing you the best.
ReplyDeleteWishing you the best, and praying for you. I need to believe in a miracle right now!
ReplyDeleteI'm praying for you right now, Kelly. I really hope this is the one for you... And I'm also very proud of how calm you are. Most amazing strong woman you are!
ReplyDeleteI hope that dream comes true for you! You are amazingly strong and calm!
ReplyDeletePraying for you and hoping all ends well. xx
ReplyDeleteOh my gosh! Congrats! I hope that you continue to have a happy and healthy 9 months!
ReplyDeleteI so hope your dream is right.
ReplyDeleteSending lots of good thoughts and vibes your way, and hoping with you that your dream comes true! :)
ReplyDeleteSending up prayers for a happy healthy baby that lives to be 90 years old too!! Dreams have a way of predicting so much, praying yours was a forecast...
ReplyDeleteHoping with you that this pregnancy will keep progressing beautifully and with no complications whatsoever. It's wonderful that you are feeling so calm. I hope that and the dream are all good signs of things to come!
ReplyDeleteSending lots of prayers your way.
ReplyDeleteHoping and praying for you!
ReplyDelete6 weeks with no problems! That's a great accomplishment! I'm hoping each day goes by with continued absence of spotting....
ReplyDeletehoping with you that this is it. You are doing awesome staying so calm through this, I know it's not easy.
ReplyDeleteHugs.
Thinking and praying for you!
ReplyDeleteYes, Lord, please.
ReplyDeleteThinking about you tonight, on the eve of Tuesday.
love,
ebe
As always you're in my thoughts and hoping that all goes well this week and all the ones to follow bringing your little one to your arms!!
ReplyDeleteThinking of you and hoping this is it.
ReplyDeleteWishing that your dream comes true! ( except for the ear infection) & keeping you in my thoughts & prayers!
ReplyDeleteMy thoughts are with you here. Hoping, praying, and crossing anything and everything with lots of love sent your way. 6 weeks is fantastic!
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