I am so over all of the commercials for the new show Parenthoo.d. Done. I'm also not looking forward to a week's worth of commercials about the one hour "baby event" on The Offic.e.
Perhaps this is my sign to watch less tv, which will be easier to do when the Olympi.cs are over. I often have the TV on the in background with them on for background noise.
I have a TV show idea. A twist on Moder.n Fam.ily. I love that show, but why do all of the couples have to have children in them at some point? No infertiles or people who chose to live childfree on the AB.C staff? No clever title yet, but it's about three couples who all are living, just as couples. Hmm...one could chose to live childfree because they just want to, another could be dealing with IF and the other could be a gay couple that wants to have a child.
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Friday, February 26, 2010
Random Thoughts
Today is snow day # 2. School was closed yesterday, which was silly, really. Today it's crazy outside. The wind is howling and the snow is coming down sideways.
What am I doing with myself?
1. AF is in town and is being horrible. My RE warned me though, so it's ok. I'm enjoying the time being off in sweats. I'm always worried when I'm teaching that I'll have some sort of accident. No worries while at home!
2. My poor dogs are bored and keep looking out the window for Mr SC. He's a wrestling coach and there are two kids on the team (I teach them also) who have made it to the 2nd round of the postseason. So, he's about an hour away (they stayed overnight) and today is the first round. He told me he thought I should stay put because of the weather. Boo. Semis and Finals are tomorrow and I'll drive down for that. My nephew wrestles also and I want to see him. I'm not a fan of wrestling myself. I don't get it at all. I want to be supportive though.
3. Monday-Wednesday this week I was at a technology conference. WOW. It was amazing! So, much of my time yesterday and today I've been spending going through what I've learned and putting together a workshop for other teachers in my district. I'm so excited to share things with my students also. In case you haven't realized, the conference and the snow days mean I haven't been in school all week!
4. I'm finding a summer institute to go to over my break. I always try to do a week of professional development and I finally get to start an AP U.S. Gover.nment program in my high school (it's why they hired me three years ago) so I'm attending a refresher this summer, since it's been several years since I've taught it.
So that's my excitement. I'm not focusing on what CD it is on what's coming up. Just enjoying relaxing after a crazy week and trying to get things ready for school.
Anyone have any plans for the weekend?
What am I doing with myself?
1. AF is in town and is being horrible. My RE warned me though, so it's ok. I'm enjoying the time being off in sweats. I'm always worried when I'm teaching that I'll have some sort of accident. No worries while at home!
2. My poor dogs are bored and keep looking out the window for Mr SC. He's a wrestling coach and there are two kids on the team (I teach them also) who have made it to the 2nd round of the postseason. So, he's about an hour away (they stayed overnight) and today is the first round. He told me he thought I should stay put because of the weather. Boo. Semis and Finals are tomorrow and I'll drive down for that. My nephew wrestles also and I want to see him. I'm not a fan of wrestling myself. I don't get it at all. I want to be supportive though.
3. Monday-Wednesday this week I was at a technology conference. WOW. It was amazing! So, much of my time yesterday and today I've been spending going through what I've learned and putting together a workshop for other teachers in my district. I'm so excited to share things with my students also. In case you haven't realized, the conference and the snow days mean I haven't been in school all week!
4. I'm finding a summer institute to go to over my break. I always try to do a week of professional development and I finally get to start an AP U.S. Gover.nment program in my high school (it's why they hired me three years ago) so I'm attending a refresher this summer, since it's been several years since I've taught it.
So that's my excitement. I'm not focusing on what CD it is on what's coming up. Just enjoying relaxing after a crazy week and trying to get things ready for school.
Anyone have any plans for the weekend?
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Being a Woman
I'm wondering what this means, how it's changed over time and what it means for those of us who are struggling with IF.
At one point, the very essence of being a woman revolved around bearing children. It was an expectation to do so. Many people have and even still believe the sole point of being married is to have children. Has this societal expectation really faded?
For those of us who are struggling to get (and stay) pregnant, does this compound the pain?
I hate that there is a stigma attached to women who either cannot have children or choose to not have children. It's one of those *gasp* type things that I don't get. Why can't people just be less judgemental and accepting of others?
I'm just glad that I'm a woman now instead of then. Seriously...married and 35 without children? It's like I'd be some sort of disgrace to uteruses everywhere.
At one point, the very essence of being a woman revolved around bearing children. It was an expectation to do so. Many people have and even still believe the sole point of being married is to have children. Has this societal expectation really faded?
For those of us who are struggling to get (and stay) pregnant, does this compound the pain?
I hate that there is a stigma attached to women who either cannot have children or choose to not have children. It's one of those *gasp* type things that I don't get. Why can't people just be less judgemental and accepting of others?
I'm just glad that I'm a woman now instead of then. Seriously...married and 35 without children? It's like I'd be some sort of disgrace to uteruses everywhere.
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Let the Games Begin!
After a four plus long break, which began on October 14
After three losses in seven months
After two hysteroscopies, a bag, a balloon and a tail
After the Tinacti.n nightmare
After the seemingly endless tears
AF must have read my letter and felt badly, because she's finally here.
That's it my bloggy friends. I'm back in the game and scared shitless.
After three losses in seven months
After two hysteroscopies, a bag, a balloon and a tail
After the Tinacti.n nightmare
After the seemingly endless tears
AF must have read my letter and felt badly, because she's finally here.
That's it my bloggy friends. I'm back in the game and scared shitless.
Monday, February 22, 2010
Welcome, ICLW and a HUGE Thanks!
Welcome, hola, greetings and saluations, bonjour to all of you stopping by from ICLW! I apologize for being a day late. :) I've been involved with ICLW for about three months and love to have the opportunity to find new blogs to follow. I hope that all of you find your happy endings through this IF adventure.
And, thank you. Thanks to all of you who just "get it", whether you already follow my blog or whether you just stopped by. This morning started out horribly (I talked about the speaker in my earlier post) and, although I was looking forward to dinner with my friends, I postponed to tomorrow. I ended up getting sick (nerves? food? I don't know) and was too overwhelmed with the fear of questions from strangers (similar to the "children" question this morning)
Anyway, it was helpful to see my friend. If I'm honest though, I couldn't wait until I could blog about it. Why? Because I knew that here, I would have people who would just understand. Imagine the irony in that. Some of the people who understand me the best are ones that I've never even met.
So thank you. You were there for me when I needed you. I hope I am able to return the favor someday.
And, thank you. Thanks to all of you who just "get it", whether you already follow my blog or whether you just stopped by. This morning started out horribly (I talked about the speaker in my earlier post) and, although I was looking forward to dinner with my friends, I postponed to tomorrow. I ended up getting sick (nerves? food? I don't know) and was too overwhelmed with the fear of questions from strangers (similar to the "children" question this morning)
Anyway, it was helpful to see my friend. If I'm honest though, I couldn't wait until I could blog about it. Why? Because I knew that here, I would have people who would just understand. Imagine the irony in that. Some of the people who understand me the best are ones that I've never even met.
So thank you. You were there for me when I needed you. I hope I am able to return the favor someday.
The Rain Clouds Parted and I Could Actually See Sun!
So I'm at a huge technology conference today and tomorrow. This morning there was a keynote speaker that started at 8. It was a packed room, with people sitting on the floor because of how packed it was. He was great and funny and had a wonderful British accent.
And then he asked...
How many of you have children?
Hello, ass. We are ALL TEACHERS. You didn't need to ask us that to illustrate your point.
As I looked around the room at almost everyone's hand being raised but mine, I wish the floor would have opened and just swallowed me. I wanted to die. I got up and left.
After about 20 minutes, I composed myself enough to go back in. I sat down and two minutes later I get a text. It was one of my best friends asking if I was at this conference. I really haven't talked to her much since October. It's just been too hard. But, honestly, I haven't really talked to anyone.
Well, turns out she is here too! I gathered up my stuff and left the room, again. She was there waiting for me in the hall. It was so good to hug her. We just cried. We ended up skipping our second session and talking. I got to tell her all about my uterine problems, the balloon and the tail. She asked me the question, "how long are you going to do this?" I'll talk about that another day. Mostly though, she tried to just listen and understand and not cry. It was tough.
Last night I made the decision to stay overnight here, because the weather is iffy and I live 50 minutes away. My friend, and two other women from my old school district (two hours away) are staying here too. So, we all have dinner plans later. SOOO just what I needed!
And then he asked...
How many of you have children?
Hello, ass. We are ALL TEACHERS. You didn't need to ask us that to illustrate your point.
As I looked around the room at almost everyone's hand being raised but mine, I wish the floor would have opened and just swallowed me. I wanted to die. I got up and left.
After about 20 minutes, I composed myself enough to go back in. I sat down and two minutes later I get a text. It was one of my best friends asking if I was at this conference. I really haven't talked to her much since October. It's just been too hard. But, honestly, I haven't really talked to anyone.
Well, turns out she is here too! I gathered up my stuff and left the room, again. She was there waiting for me in the hall. It was so good to hug her. We just cried. We ended up skipping our second session and talking. I got to tell her all about my uterine problems, the balloon and the tail. She asked me the question, "how long are you going to do this?" I'll talk about that another day. Mostly though, she tried to just listen and understand and not cry. It was tough.
Last night I made the decision to stay overnight here, because the weather is iffy and I live 50 minutes away. My friend, and two other women from my old school district (two hours away) are staying here too. So, we all have dinner plans later. SOOO just what I needed!
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Dear AF,
I'm going to skip the pleasantries. No "how are you" or nice introduction, acting like I care. I don't.
Generally, I'm not a rude person. I don't want to hurt other's feelings. With you though, it's different. Remember that letter I sent you last month? Yeah, this isn't quite as colorful (I'm not linking it for anyone who's new from ICLW because of the extreme profanity) but I can, in fact, articulate my feelings without using expletive. Geez. Have a bit more faith in me.
Can you please show already? I've been excited from three days to see that I'm spotting. It's enough to, um, put off Mr SC's advances. See, AF? Now you're denying me a piece of action. So. not. cool.
This break that started 10/14 has to end already! Don't you have a heart? You are my least favorite family member, AF, if I'm being honest. (I don't like my neice "bloating" and nephew "cramps" if I'm being honest though either) However, it would make me like you a little bit more if you didnt' keep cancelling visits on me! I keep thinking I see you drive up the driveway, so I scramble to do the dishes and put on a bra. C'mon already! Have a heart.
Much hate,
Kelly
Generally, I'm not a rude person. I don't want to hurt other's feelings. With you though, it's different. Remember that letter I sent you last month? Yeah, this isn't quite as colorful (I'm not linking it for anyone who's new from ICLW because of the extreme profanity) but I can, in fact, articulate my feelings without using expletive. Geez. Have a bit more faith in me.
Can you please show already? I've been excited from three days to see that I'm spotting. It's enough to, um, put off Mr SC's advances. See, AF? Now you're denying me a piece of action. So. not. cool.
This break that started 10/14 has to end already! Don't you have a heart? You are my least favorite family member, AF, if I'm being honest. (I don't like my neice "bloating" and nephew "cramps" if I'm being honest though either) However, it would make me like you a little bit more if you didnt' keep cancelling visits on me! I keep thinking I see you drive up the driveway, so I scramble to do the dishes and put on a bra. C'mon already! Have a heart.
Much hate,
Kelly
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