Wife Fail

I'm not really sure what made me decide to blog about this.  I mean, it's an IF blog and I don't blog that often.  I've been struggling with something though and here I find myself.

This summer has been amazing.  I'm a teacher so I've been a pseudo-SAHM since June.  I have about three weeks left and could cry when I think about going back.  The day is pretty routine but I love it.  I love teaching A things and watching her smile, laugh and grow.

Mr SC is home, too.  I believe I talked about this before, but he did damage to two of his nerves in his arm last July, about two weeks after A was born.  He's been off of work this entire time.  Although he's been limited physically, he's been able to spend A's first year of her life with her.  Priceless!

Yet Mr SC is miserable. He's grumpy and snappy and just yucky. I thought it was due to a health scare that was resolved this morning but apparently that's not it.  He has mild pain almost constantly and is limited physically with what he can do but his wife and daughter are home with him.  I just don't get what there is to be upset about.  Today I said hey...it could be five hours of physical therapy a week (which he hates because he feels like it's a waste) or 40 hours a week of work.  He chuckled a little but it didn't help.

So, I pretty much kicked him out of the house.  I told him to take one of our change jars (which had a half decent amount of money) and go to the casino to play poker (it's been a long time and he loves to play). He left and I feel shitty.

Truth is, I don't want to do things without A.  I've been out with "the girls" once since she's been born and the only other two times were when I couldn't take her with me.  I just don't get it.

Now I'm here, with her, and it really hurts.  This was all we ever wanted, wasn't it?

A Year in the Making

Where did the time go?  Alaina turned one yesterday!  I don't have a little baby anymore!

To coincide with her birthday, she's turned into a definite toddler almost overnight.  Although she started taking steps here and there at ten months and started walking all over (all day long) about a month ago, the last few days she's been babbling/talking much more and seems so much more independent.  I can't get over how different every day can be!

We also went on vacation a few weeks ago.  The beach was great and Alaina loved it!

Here are a few pics of the last few weeks of adventure:

From her birthday party in he dress

Smash cake fun :)

An overcast day at the beach